I’m certain I will toss and turn typing this title into my newest blog post, but it must be done and even more so be done.
I’m an old Fart as my late husband use to call himself when he was a tender young lad of 46 before he passed. What in the Hell !
Today I am 63 going on 64, feeling like 94 with each rain drop that is falling this spring so far. What the Hell?
Now to be honest and I actually dislike when folks repeat that saying, “To Be Honest”. Well if you’re being honest in the first place and live an honest life there is no need to announce that at this point in time you’re going to turn over a new leaf and become honest in a statement that is to follow. Right?
Actually this is the first time I’ve used to be honest, either saying it out loud or typing it here. Feels sort of cheesy and also it feels like I’m being dis-honest by announcing it. Weird I know but to know me is to love me .. wink…
I began making videos on YouTube in 2015. Not knowing what I was doing but sometimes paddling out into the deepest of waters where the sharks live just waiting for tadpoles to swim by can be exciting. I can almost have read their minds, “Hum…Tasty treat has arrived.”
So, I dodged the dangers of sharks in the giant ocean of other YouTubers trying to put out videos in hopes that someday they would attract attention like a bee to honey. Well, I sailed along until 2019 when the platform stirred the pot big time and were laying down the law so to speak, YouTube was no longer the Wild Wild West any longer and the sheriff rode into town to clean up the ones who were upsetting the advertisers or whom ever was upset. (It had something to do with children content) What the hell!
So, being a little channel with just over 1, 500 subscribers at the time I got a bit worried since my channel consisted of animated story lines that I was have fun creating. You see even old dogs can learn new tricks and with the help of my son the graphic designer he guided me on how to use a computer drawing tablet and off I went as happy as a pig who had just found a water hole for which to roll over and over again.
So I created a few story lines and did the weekly drawing on the tablet which to most folks looked like a cartoon of my story.
Those are just a few of the art work I was creating for my story line and I narrated each Friday because it took many many hours and 6 full days to get each panel just right for my story and remember I was a new comer to this type of digital art. I learned with pencil and paper, moving on to paint, and oils back in the day. But, I must say I adored the time and hours spent creating like this and my son was proud of me for picking it up so quickly. All was good there on YouTube for a brief time it felt like. My channel was never going to be huge and lots and lots of followers which at times made me a bit sad .. But , I really did not have the trolls as they called them coming to my channel because I was that tree in the forest of many. Trolls to me were those fat belly dolls with the colorful hair that lived underneath bridges.
I use to play with them when a child myself, and so did my daughter many years later. Funny how some old things are new again. I most times wish I were too. Especially when my knees hurt or the gout attack I experience after eating a few spears of Asparagus that I grow out in my garden but can no longer eat without my body turning on me. F.Y.I if your curious about what causes gout , for me it is Seafood, Beef, Turkey, and the glorious Asparagus. There are other things as well but you would have to research that on your own or ask your doctor.
I digress again as per usual. I get on here with you readers of my little blog and I feel as if you are sitting right here with me and either rolling your eyes at me and my ponderings or laughing along with me. If, there is a point where I actually laugh out loud while typing on here I hope I can cause a huge ripple effect for you to giggle too because What the Hell we all need it right now.
So long story even longer I deleted my YouTube channel in 2019 and hid behind my woes feeling I’d made a big mistake, since after a few days I sorely missed the interactions I had with my subscribers who were mostly at the time view for view but heck and good golly miss molly I didn’t care because I typed and typed to them back in the comment section when they would comment on one of my videos. I loved every key click of my keyboard and smiled in pure bliss.
You see even the most simple and mundane appearing actions one can preform can and does give you joy which I’ve found grows into a sense of happiness. How many of us take our entire lives looking for that blue bird of happiness when it was right there inside of you all the while. Waiting for you to see.
So go ahead and be brave even if you want to cause a young neighbor child to laugh with a big blue bowl atop your head. Smile like you’ve never been happier and the ripple action will begin and you’re on your way to bliss. No fooling ~give it a try…
So shortly after deleting my original YouTube Channel I made a brand new one. Realizing I’d never get back my original subscribers and yet again I was back at ground zero wondering off and on since then why am I doing this. I threatened to quit many times when my videos which I worked very hard on never got off the ground. Actually, I knew it’s a young persons world. In my sixties I’m not going to be out front of the camera and my channel would have to exist with me being the director behind the camera trying my best to create something of purpose.
I suppose I figured I’m too old to show off what gravity does to a aging body. Gravity did nothing to my mind and I most times still feel young at heart although with age comes experience and hopefully wisdom. I’m still waiting on wisdom to arrive but I’m at peace with the experience gathered over these 6 decades. Now if you’ve read down this far and you are not ready to pour a nice big glass of wine and go to bed then here is the sole reason for this blog post.
Two days ago I made a little sort of funny video about the critter out in my yard waiting for me to take out all of my seedlings that are waiting for warmer temps here in Ontario Canada. So, they bide their time (chipmunks) looking inside of my patio door just sitting there waiting, wondering when their bounty of seedlings are coming out. I giggle at them and yes I still giggle like a school child even in my sixties. “Not until mid June little buddy I say out loud.”
So the other day I was weeding a part of the garden watching the wee chipmunk watching me from the fence. He or she would scurry along a little and poke its head back at me. This went on for a few minutes and I wondered if it was checking on if I was sowing any seeds they could dig up as soon as I’ve left the garden. This is the reason for seedlings, better chance to save them. Anyway I went to stand straight again after being bent over with the weeds when something flew by my head only inches away from me and it was the darn critter.
After being startled for a second, a natural born YouTuber will proclaim, “That’s a Video”
So I came indoors and made a little wee video and used some of my digital talents I’ve gathered over the past few years and created the video. Now let me tell you I rarely get over 20 views on most of my videos, except for a chosen few that have done well. But, this Critter video has 462 views in two days. What the Bloody Hell is going On ! !
But the day before I made that critter video and the chipmunk thinking it was a good idea to try and do a Olympic landing on the top of my head I was done with YouTube even if I didn’t know what I was going to fill my days with when my knees were hurting and I could get out there to garden yet. How on earth would I cope with the state of affairs of the world without my own YouTube Channel to be a daily distraction keeping me sane. What I ask.. ?
Well, something guided me back before I deleted my channel for the second time, weather it was a grand kick of the backside from above or perhaps they sent the critter to land on my head, but whatever stopped me in my tracks I 100% felt I was to not suppose delete the channel. And then the last video I created blew up well for my stats anyway. I’ve laughed for two days watching it grow and grow. So if you’re bored and need something different to watch over there, (not so shameless plug since I’ve only 121 subscribers at this point in time and I’ve got the welcome mat out just for you all here, since you feel like family.
Hugs and kisses across the world wide web, virtual that is..